My Living Hell

What once was lost shall be found once more

I'm back in some word. I realized I haven't been updating any of my online shit as much as I should, so if anyone is still looking and/or waiting for me to update let me know by commenting to me.

I go on my myspace a lot, but I don't really post there though. It is right here if you want to add me. Just let me know that you are a journal friend cause a lot of porn people like to add me for some damn reason or another. I'm really not into that, well unless Orlando Bloom is involved.

Any how, I am going back to college this winter. I'll be going for photography, and for all those that didn't know, the college liked my pictures and gave me a scholarship that pays for a fraction. It's a damn expensive college and it makes me worried, but I'll do it even if I spend the rest of my life paying it all off.

Other horrid news, my granny has been in the hospital for almost 2 weeks, they don't know if she'll ever get out. I don't really have much to say about that. My mother has breast cancer and they think the other breast has something in it. Monday we find out if the other breast does indeed have something. The right one has the cancer removed and she has been going through chemo. If all goes well December will be the last month to do the chemo. She'll start radiation though. She can't go back to teaching and the school doesn't give her benefits now and she only gets 65% of her pay. Bullshit if you ask me. But these are the things my life has been giving me forcing me not to go online as much as I'd like to.

Peace and love to you all.
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Write to Ryan Seacrest

At the Golden Globes Angelina did not speak to Ryan Seacrest as much as Ryan wished. With this he went on air, with his radio station to tell the world how rude she was. I suspect she didn't wish to talk because of the fact her mother was not doing as well. As Angelina fans we should come together and tell Ryan what he said was rude, for he shouldn't have made such a story up just to start a feud so he could have more fame.

I wrote this following e-mail to him, and I think we owe it to Angie to defend her.

Dear Ryan,
I am an Angelina Jolie fan, and her mother has passed away this Saturday (January 27th). She has a strong bond with her mother, any fan or researcher would know this. Perhaps her life was a little high strung over this, and maybe that is why she did not wish to talk at the Golden Globes.

Anyone who has lost a loved one knows that it is always hard to even leave the house at times. When caring for someone that is dying of cancer it is heart breaking, each day is more traumatic, and so this rudeness that you suggest she gave you might have been due to this fact.

I think you owe it to her, and your conscience to apologize for what you have said. I find that you are trying to gain publicity over a fake feud, but at what price are you doing this? Are you happy and proud of yourself for making such talk? Are you selling yourself out for more fame? Brad Pitt spoke to you, answered your questions, so why is that not good enough?

Please do the right thing, and take it as she's having a stressful time in her life.

Elizabeth Savasta
New Boston, MI

Feel free to take this as an example and here is Ryan's e-mail : What he did was far ruder then what he claimed she did. Now on top of losing her mother she has to now defend herself against the media attacks on her character. Lets do the right thing and speak up on it.

[Cross posted - Everywhere!]
Orlando: wink

A none funny joke...

As you may already know, it is a sin for a Muslim male to see any woman other than his wife naked, and that he must commit suicide if he does. So next Saturday at 4 pm. eastern time all American women are asked to walk out of their house completely naked to help weed out any neighborhood terrorists. Circling your block for one hour is recommended for this anti-terrorist effort all men are to position themselves in lawn chairs in front of their house to prove they are not Muslims, and to demonstrate they think it's okay to see nude women other than their wife and to show support for all American women. Since Islam also does not approve of alcohol, a cold 6-pack at your side is further proof of your anti-Muslim sentiment. The American government appreciates your efforts to root out terrorists and applauds your participation in this anti-terrorist activity God bless America. It is your patriotic duty to pass this on.

~~~I know this was meant to be a joke. I realize this, but in light of the events going on around us, I do not find humor in this. Such jokes continue the fear and hatred of a culture we do not understand fully. It adds to the folly views of others, and the continue stupidity of our culture here. I find this to be offensive, for I do not doubt some will do such things, and take it as truth, or find truth in it. It is racial profiling, and even jokes have turned our society in to an ill formed one. I find this to be completely offensive, and I want to state my opinion on it, I think others should do as they feel is right, so don't just sit back and take e-mails of this nature to pass you by. Instead, in form those that send such things your opinion, if you feel such a thing is offensive. Jokes of this nature are not needed in such times as we are in.
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Life in the 1500s

The next time you are washing your hands and complain because the water temperature isn't just how you like it, think about how things used to be. Here are some facts about the1500s:

These are interesting...

1. Most people got married in June because they took their yearly bath in May, and still smelled pretty good by June. However, they were starting to smell, so brides carried a bouquet of flowers to hide the body odor. Hence the custom today of carrying a bouquet when getting married.

2. Baths consisted of a big tub filled with hot water. The man of the house had the privilege of the nice clean water, then all the other sons and men, then the women and finally the children. Last of all the babies. By then the water was so dirty you could actually lose someone in it. Hence the saying, Don't throw the baby out with the Bath water..

3. Houses had thatched roofs-thick straw-piled high, with no wood underneath. It was the only place for animals to get warm, so all the cats and other small animals (mice, bugs) lived in the roof When it rained it became slippery and sometimes the animals would slip and fall off the roof. Hence the saying . It's raining cats and dogs.

4. There was nothing to stop things from falling into the house.. This posed a real problem in the bedroom where bugs and other droppings could mess up your nice clean bed. Hence, a bed with big posts and a sheet hung over the top afforded some protection. That's how canopy beds came into existence.

5. The floor was dirt. Only the wealthy had something other than dirt. Hence the saying, Dirt poor. The wealthy had slate floors that would get slippery in the winter when wet, so they spread thresh (straw) on floor to help keep their footing. As the winter wore on, they added more thresh until, when you opened the door, it would all start slipping outside. A piece of wood was placed in the entranceway. Hence the saying a thresh hold.

6. In those old days, they cooked in the kitchen with a big kettle that always hung over the fire. Every day they lit the fire and added things to the pot. They ate mostly vegetables and did not get much meat. They would eat the stew for dinner, leaving leftovers in the pot to get cold overnight and then start over the next day. Sometimes stew had food in it that had been there for quite a while. Hence the rhyme, Peas porridge hot, peas porridge cold, peas porridge in the pot nine days old..

7. Sometimes they could obtain pork, which made them feel quite special. When visitors came over, they would hang up their bacon to show off. It was a sign of wealth that a man could, bring home the bacon. They would cut off a little to share with guests and would all sit around and chew the fat..

8. Those with money had plates made of pewter. Food with high acid content caused some of the lead to leach onto the food, causing lead poisoning death. This happened most often with tomatoes, so for the next 400 years or so, tomatoes were considered poisonous.

9. Bread was divided according to status. Workers got the burnt bottom of the loaf, the family got the middle, and guests got the top, or the upper crust.

10. Lead cups were used to drink ale or whisky. The combination would sometimes knock the imbibers out for a couple of days. Someone walking along the road would take them for dead and prepare them for burial. They were laid out on the kitchen table for a couple of days and the family would gather around and eat and drink and wait and see if they would wake up. Hence the custom of holding a wake.

11. England is old and small and the local folks started running out of places to bury people. So they would dig up coffins and would take the bones to a bone-house, and reuse the grave. When reopening these coffins, 1 out of 25 coffins were found to have scratch marks on the inside and they realized they had been burying people alive. So they would tie a string on the wrist of the corpse, lead it through the coffin and up through the ground and tie it to a bell. Someone would have to sit out in the graveyard all night (the graveyard shift.) to listen for the bell; thus, someone could be, saved by the bell or was considered a ...dead ringer..
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V for Vendetta (and what it inspired me to write)

I know that were a last year thing, but I having only just seen it this early morning. I must make a note that I am glad I did not turn it off after five minutes, but we will get back to this. I will not, and I refuse to make this journal friends only any longer.

I am inspired by this movie in many ways now. It is a very inspiring movie. I feel a bit of a voice coming to me, one that has been hiding in my mind for quite some time after seeing it. I really don’t know if others felt it, I know it offended some for reasons it inspired me, so to that I say there is always an opposite view in anything. In fact play devil’s advocate for a day and you can realize that anything said can have an opposite point. It’s life.

Now, the negative about the movie, because even the best of movies can be improved. Natalie Portman’s accent was horrid and she almost made me turn the damn movie off. I knew I had to watch it, I knew it had important things in it. I say the director should have let her speak English, because whatever she was speaking was awful and made me want to hit her. I liked the cameo actors in bigger roles. Wilde’s Oscar Wilde was her boss whom she rain to for help. The head cop that doesn’t die was Santiago in Interview with a Vampire, and I recognized more, but I’m only thinking of few things about the movie because I have an ass load of things to get off my chest.

I feel that the movie is referencing our current situation, and I must say I think the future will be this way, or very similar if things do not change. Sure, think you know I am just a left sider, or liberal, no realist. Look around you the USA is in a kingdom of fear, and Hunter S. Thompson wrote this book back in 2003. He sensed it, he wrote it out, and all that he said in the fears he had with our country have come true. You have to be well read and educated, read a lot of newspapers and articles. You can be more informed then even the so-called experts that seem to always scratch their asses thinking it is merely there heads.

No our phones do not need to be tapped, and our airports are not any safer. Our troops are thinning, and you know something, other countries realize this. They see how weak we are growing, but do I feel we will get attacked, no because Sept. 11th did all it was supposed, all that they wanted it to. Our country is growing weak and all that they once thought about us has been proven true. I suppose you are not surprised to know Osama is still out there, he is healthy, and since he followed all the guidelines of a terrorist he is legally allowed to kill thousands of people, his country backs him up. Did this shock you?

Taken from the transcript of the September 15, 2006 showing of Real Time with Bill Maher

BILL MAHER: And it looks like we’ve lost Afghanistan now.

CLARK KENT ERVIN: That’s right.

GLORIA STEINEM: But he’s – but he’s—

BILL MAHER: Do you think we have?

CLARK KENT ERVIN: There’s no question about that. We took our eye off the ball. Afghanistan is reverting to status-quo ante, and it’s absolutely unconscionable that that’s the case. And furthermore, a little noticed development a couple of months ago, was the unceremonious closing of the anti-Bin Laden unit at the CIA. Now, the government says that we are less focused on finding him. But as a practical matter, surely that’s what it means. And that remains our enemy number one, and the administration itself says so. There’s a disconnect there, it seems to me.

GLORIA STEINEM: But that’s – and that’s – that’s the moment in this documentary because he not only has followed Islamic law now by warning and saying, “You must…you know, you have this opportunity to convert.” Three times he’s done this. But he also now has approval to kill—

BILL MAHER: [overlapping] Well, that was my bit. You saw that.

GLORIA STEINEM: [overlapping] I’m sorry.

BILL MAHER: [overlapping] I did that the first week – and then the next day, they had a tape that said, “Convert to Islam.” Mine was a joke. Theirs, unfortunately, is not a joke.

GLORIA STEINEM: But also, he now has – he’s never not – he’s never failed to do what he said he would do – and he now has permission to kill up to ten million people in a nuclear attack. And even when Christiane heard this, it’s the first time I’ve ever seen her discomfited on the camera herself. She said, “He has permission to kill ten million people?” And the answer was yes.


GLORIA STEINEM: Now that was the most chilling moment I have seen, bar none.

Real the rest of the transcript if you feel the need or think I am taking out of context. Gloria's comment about Christiane is Christiane Amanpour the reporter.

It sent chills and anger throughout my being. I felt like I need to I also watched the show and to hear it on TV made me angry. Why only HBO, why does our news fail us? Why do they always fail to report facts? Bird Flu! Yeah, bite me, when nuclear war and hunger hits the world I don't think I'm going to give a damn what bird gives me what, I'll be dead by then.

I’m tired of living in a state of fear and feeling like I know something is wrong and I can’t do a damn thing about it. I’m sick of wondering if I say something against my government that I’m going to be patronized for it, that I will be called un patriotic, and most of all I don’t want to live as though I think freedom of speech is a privilege, because it isn’t. Freedom of Speech is a RIGHT! It is what my fucking ancestors, what your ancestors died for. Doesn’t matter what race you are, all Americans fought for their freedoms, and that was one of them. We also have a government that is supposed to be based on the people, and we have the right to call out our elected officials when they do wrong to us, when they try and take our rights from us.

I’m not by any means the best person in the world, and I’m not a know it all. I don’t know everything, but when I look at what the world was like in 2000, and what it is like six years later it makes me want to vomit. It is a disgrace, and we are letting it happen, because we aren’t informed, because we don’t keep informed. Stop it! I’m sick of it. I’m sick of looking around while other sugar coat every fucking thing around them. It’s not fucking Disneyworld, and you know something, they are paid off. Don’t think I’m so idiotic as to thing their special on 9/11 was factual. Everyone knows they fabricated what others said knowing full well those involved were alive to tell them. They made it Bill Clinton’s fault because he was getting a blow job, this is another thing I’m sick of. He did that, big deal, why then did he almost get impeached when he didn’t kill anything other than almost killing his marriage? He never led innocent children, or teens, my generation, to a war that turned out to have oil and gas at the end.

Fine, say that is too liberal of me, that I blame Bush. I don’t blame him fully, he is far to stupid to have planned this all, but those involved, him included in his cabinet, need to be called out for unjustifiable deaths they have occurred. I mean New Orleans as well, and don’t send me any bullshit about he couldn’t know, I watched the Spike Lee documentary where he has footage of the president sitting there when experts told him what was going to happen, that the storm they all knew was possible to hit New Orleans one day, looked like it was on the way. They could have fixed the levees, and you know something, the main hurricane missed New Orleans. A category 1 hurricane breeched the levees, levees they were supposed to fix, but the government said their was no money, and now they have to spend more money then even the most expensive original planning cost.

I don’t feel I can depend on my government, and they don’t make me feel safe or secure. Tell me to move to a different country, but you see this is the attitude of not wanting to hear the harsh reality, and if you deny it and still feel I am heartless to my country I say fuck you. I do, seriously, because I have hope for this country, just like I always have, and I hope someday it turns out to be worth the fighting our ancestors had to go through.

Proud to be American, I am proud, I am not proud that our civil rights are being slowly taken away from us. The terrorists didn’t damage us as much as we are damaging ourselves by sitting here and not saying something. Fuck, type something up, do whatever you fucking want when it comes to your birth right as an American citizen, fucking state your loud ass opinion. Start being American, be patriot, does it, because if you are silent you kill your main right. If you want to do more, than start doing that, because you have the option of passing on something, passing on pride and strength of your homeland, do you really want the future generations to be zombies and not knowing that they can speak out for what they believe? Do you want to live in a world when you are older, that is a 180-degree difference than when you knew it. It is 180 degrees too, due to the fact 360 is a full circle and it is not correct to say you did a 360 and see someone or something as opposite or almost opposite of what they were, because in fact they would be the same if they did a 360, 180 is half way point.

In other news, and since I’m feeling so daring, John McCain reneges! Isn’t that amusing, ass kisser, or STAR FUCKER! So good people will eventually sell their souls for power and a chance to be in history and on rulers. That’s so amazing, lets say Kerry says one thing and does another, and lets say Democrats can’t make up their minds, but now what about when a Republican does it? Oh, that’s right, if they do it, it’s because they took their time to make a decision, and even if they said no, they really only wanted time to think on it more. Right, because they know all, and if you run for president, for your campaigning try to kiss the boss’ ass so that you can raise more money. I hope he has nightmares of being a prisoner of war, my friend said something along those lines and I agree with her.

Now that this comes to an end, though I could go on about Global Warming, the Environment, and Hybrids and Solar Energy, I am only going to say these things so far. I might do another post if I feel the need. I did want to say before I am done, that this was a lot harder for me to write, for the fact I do hate to speak politics on these platforms. I know political issues, if people follow them, only bring out strong emotions and feelings. The thing is, is I’m sick of knowing what I feel and never hearing it enough, I’m sick of hearing the other side, even if it is idle things, or tidbits here and their. I have been holding back these things. I don’t want to anymore, and I read other people speaking out, even if it is just because they wanted to and knew others would not see it, I want to do that. I want to let go of the fear of my right. I want to gain my right back, and so once I click submit, I will claim that right again. I don’t care what your viewpoint is politically; please don’t let go of your rights and freedoms. Die for them, be willing to, our ancestors gave us this, and how do we repay them? That is your choice in the end.
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